all that said....
I LOVE being a mom.
yes, i am learning to die to my daily 'to do' list/agenda/plans for the time being. yes, i feel like a milk machine most of the time. yes, i wake up dog tired. yes, most days i can barely brush my teeth and wash my pits (is that TMI? hee hee) and yes, i wouldn't trade it for the world.
learning to take one day at a time. most of life is made up of seemingly insignificant moments and i don't want to sacrifice any of those precious moments on the altar of my selfish ambition but rather walk by the Spirit.
I am learning to not to compare myself to other moms who seem to 'have it all together' (you know...the mom who homeschools her six kids, posts on a gorgeous blog, has a thriving 'cottage industry', posts delicious recipes she's 'whipped up', dabbles in photography and posts great pics, looks great at all times, and etc etc. how do these moms do it?!! as my own mother said, 'something's gotta give.' i hope that's the case. otherwise, i am so tempted to feel inadequate, lazy, and 'not quite up to par').
I am learning to ignore the lies of the enemy that i don't measure up to other moms out there.
I am learning to embrace this life God has uniquely mapped out for me.
I am learning to seize the day - each precious day - in this fleeting season.
I am learning to not compare myself to others. (wait...didn't I mention that already?)
...living for an audience of One...
that's what I need to keep reminding myself of. that's all that's important.
so that's that. loving this new 'life' that currently revolves primarily around my husband, my home, and my new little one (as sweet Kathryn grows, we are excited to soon extend our 'world' to include resuming church attendance/events/serving in ministries, reaching out to others, hospitality, etc) . yes, it's a smaller, slower world than i've ever experienced before, but it's one i wouldn't trade for any other season i've walked through before. you know why? not because it's always 'more fun' or 'more fulfilling'. it's been wonderful in many ways, no doubt. but the real reason is that it's where He has me at right now. I've been given the grace for NOW. not THEN. not WHAT WILL BE.
I'm called to take one day at a time. To 'do the next thing' with joy & gratefulness. To take each day as they come with the hope of the Spirit giving me the strength that I need...the physical strength and the emotional strength.
well, i need to hit the sack. Little One will be up soon ;)
“The world looks for happiness through self-assertion. The Christian knows that joy is found in self-abandonment. 'If a man will let himself be lost for My sake,' Jesus said, 'he will find his true self.' A Christian woman's true freedom lies on the other side of a very small gate---humble obedience..." ~ Elizabeth Elliott
The sweetest sounds to mortals given are heard in Mother, Home, and Heaven. ~William Goldsmith Brown
Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs in my field, since the payment is pure love. ~Mildred B. Vermont